I miss you...

I miss you.. I miss looking into your eys.. I miss your skin against mine.. I miss your soft gentel kisses.. I miss hearing your voice.. I miss seeing your smile.. I miss that laugh thats always made me smile.. I miss cuddling in my big bed.. I miss wrestling around and you really hurting me.. I miss taking puppy on walks and us just talking about life.. I miss riding bikes around at night with the siblings..  I miss everything little thing about you baby.  This is by far one of the hardest thing I have ever had to do in my life! Its driving me crazy not being able to talk to you or spend time with you. Im trying to stay strong for the both of us but every second of the day something reminds me of you. Like the dentist today, Im so use to you sitting next to me holding my hand and laughing at me when i gleek on myself, or going to costco and eating everything we can find. I was all by myself today and I never felt so lost... I took hanging out with you for granted because i never thought it would change. boy was I wrong..  I need you baby I cant do this by myself. Why would she want to hurt us both so bad?  she the worst parent I have ever met in my life. She doesnt care if you are happy, and long as she gets what she wants and as long as shes happy then thats all that matters. Shes a selfish, hypocritical, unhappy, bitter old lady who has to makes other people unahppy to build herself up. Im not the jelouse one, you and that fat ugly disgusting creature that even God is ashamed of creating are!! you see how happy we are and how much love we have for eachother and your jelouse you have no one in your life to give you that. Take a look in the mirror every once in awhile, Take time and think about the person you are.. maybe youll figure out why. as for the other one, he is MINE! you had your chance with him and you failed, that doesnt mean you should try to make ours faile also. we are a strong couple and nothing will break us, why is it so hard fir you to get that through your giant ass head? stop coming around, he doesnt like you! He doesnt even want to be your friend, he wants nothing to do with you so give it up because you make yourself look more stupid then you already fucking do!! You have no control over this relastionship and you have no control over me and I know for a fact that drives you fucking crazy! GET OVER IT!  your pushing that poor boy away just like you pushed his sister. You wounder why he loves me soo much, well maybe its because im nothing like you and I will never EVER be!!  Your a 40 year old woman, why the fuck are you trying to pick on a 17 year old??!! I have done nothing to you, nothing at all! You think me calling you a "bitch" is a big deal? It was the truth and everyone knows it so stop acting all suprised. If you dont like being called it then maybe you should change. and in the mean time stop trying to get me in trouble! my dad does not care that I called you a bitch because it was the truth. Im not getting kicked off the cheer team which I know is what you want to happen but keep dreaming lady! Dont be mad at me because your too fat to do pretty much anything other then swim in a pool and drink wine! Its time you left high school and stop with all the drama, grow up and get over yourself. This time you owe me and my family an apology and until then you are nothing to me and we will treat you like the old peice of shit that you are